Today I’m turning things to a little but more serious note. Because I need to. Lately, I am really working on having a more intentional relationship with God. I have this struggle with kind of keeping God at arms length. Thinking that God has better things to do than deal with me. But I think I’m wrong. In fact I know I am. So I’m working on it. And it is making a difference. One of the things I’ve started to do – ask for help.
Right now in my corner of my world I am incredibly blessed. I am carrying the child of the man I believe God made especially for me, I have a son whom I adore and lights up my world. Did I mention the very special man made just for me yet? I have not just a house, but a home. We are going on a big (for us) vacation in just 13 days to a place I have never been – that I have wanted to go to for as long as I can remember - and I am so excited to give this gift to Grady. I have a job in a struggling economy. I have family and friends whom I love and they love me. Heck – I even have a more functional than average relationship with my ex-husband. I am truly blessed. And some times - it is so easy to take it for granted. But not today.
When I take the tiniest step out of my direct corner of the world and I look at those I love I see the following – right now, today. A friend whose dad had a heart attack over the weekend and is in the hospital. A co-worker whose grandfather is in his final days. Two couples close to me that will make simply fabulous parents and they are struggling with infertility. A mother to a 20-year-old and a 16-year-old whose was fighting cancer and winning, went in for a chemo treatment, got and infection, and died unexpectedly over the weekend. A toddler with a discovered peanut allergy that has caused much sickness over her first 18 months. Mom and her will visit the doctors office probably about 10 times over last week and this to diagnose etc. Several couples in my life struggling for their marriages and a son struggling with an alcohol addiction. These are people in my immediate circle or one step beyond my immediate circle of friends and family. When I think about it all, I feel like it could swallow me whole. So I'm going to God and ask for help.
I feel even more grateful that my life is calm, my waters smooth so that I may be a source of support for all these worried, hurting, struggling people in my life that I care so much about. I pray that they each experience healing and have the worry in their hearts eased, may they know that they are not alone in their struggles – and may they know they too can ask for help and it will make a difference. Won’t you maybe take a moment today too and think about each of these people and maybe some people from your corner of the world that need help and ask for help for them. Thanks.
Such a eye opener! It can be so easy to take all of the wonderful things you have in life for granted, as I often do, and not be thankful for them everyday, especially when, as you said, people so close to you have some very big struggles they are facing. I know I can have such a bad attitude at times about certain things, but when you really sit back and think, my challenges at this point, are so small compared to what they could be. Thank you for helping me see things cleary today. I will take sometime to think about others and be thankful for all of the happy things I have in my life. You really are an inspriration to me and you help me to be a happier and more positive person.
Posted by: Melissa | July 28, 2008 at 02:37 PM